[TimM]

Thanks to all for your sympathies and for sharing your experiences.

Thanks Gerry and Admin for not moving this Thread --it is helping me make the day ...

I am tearing reading all of your stories, I told my wife i posted and cc'd her and this is her response...

"I know... This seems unbearable to feel. Too much pain. I want to hold him and kiss him one last time. If I had known I would have done so much differently last night and I would have never left his side. I feel like I abandoned him when he most needed me and I know the guilt will pass but have to just go thru the feelings. I know we did everything we could for him and there is no doubt in my mind that he knew how much we loved him. He wouldn't have held on for so long. He fought until the very end but when I saw the tears in his eyes last night I knew he was ready. I miss him and the hole in my heart will take time to fill if at all. He was so amazing. We were so blessed w him. "